When I asked my boyfriend to describe what kind of a girlfriend I did, he said Good. So I told him he was lazy with his words. and This is what he said..

hao says:
your hair is well scented with the australian berries
your eyes are the most beautiful to gaze at
your nose makes me feel like unpluggin it and if possible, power me up with joy and laughter
your lips are soft, perfect to kiss
your neck is sweet smelling, but it tickles you when i try to take a breath around it
...

and other things which I shall keep to myself.
My boyfriend- a wise ass. <3 WHYYYYYYYYYYY did i choose this profession? Been almost two months already since SH left to the UK. Things have been quite dull on my side here, with work then gym and yoga and then family. I hardly go out, don't have the energy nor the time nor the mood to. Few friends make it worthwhile though to push through the tiredness (laziness) to get dressed nicely and go out for a nice meal and for a nice hearty chat (bitching-session). Work has been going well for me, some days slow some days fast some days busy some not so much... But I must stress I am extremely lucky to find myself in this position with this particular firm. I enjoy it very well and I learn a lot, although there are a lot of other things to learn.

Long distance has been going relatively well, I miss him but he's been so wonderful with the skype-ing, the messages and occasional texts. We will never be one of those couples who call each other everyday (stingy) but am thankful for the wonderful and loving person he is.

Speaking of which, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY (for the 31st October). Please do not have less fun just because I am not around, I hope you will have an awesome time with ur friends (and my friends!) and celebrate it well. Because let's face it when you come back next year u won't have the time (and energy and mood) to celebrate your 24th (lazy) Hehe!
I love u lots. <3

Ok so Sh left yesterday- not much tears were shedded, I think it hast really hit me yet... Just all a blur to me. Cried just a little, then his mom patted my shoulder and told me about the benefits of the internet. If only Brunei's connection was as good as the UK's one.

Anyway, I am being told now by a lot of people, things I already know- it's only going to be 9 months, I'll see him in November, and maybe again in July, I can focus more on my work now (This one is what I am telling myself- although I am blogging now at 11am on a Tuesday morning :P), wonders of webcam and Skype, Google Talk, etc...

But it's not going to be the same. Growl.
I'll be a big girl- and not make a big deal about this :P
(will try anyway)



PS: as you can see I am having fun with photofunia. LOL

Today is the little one's birthday. Happy Birthday beautiful. I wish I was with u. <3 During the Ramadan period and the preparation for the upcoming Raya, there has been some controversies going around. Newspaper advertisements for Restaurants' "Sungkai Buffets" have printed out their promotions, however the promotions have specifically excluded 'non-Muslims' eating. And there has been many opinions, many very self-opinionated people opposing and favoring this stance.

I asked someone what he thought of it, and he said that it is unfair... so I asked him what about those restaurants in the sultanate that do not cater to Muslims people? what about those restaurants that bear the sign 'bukan makanan orang islam" on their front doors? AND that kept him quiet.

A few seconds later, he replied, "But that is required by law. and it is a matter of choice whether they want to eat in those particular restaurants". AND that kept me quiet and speechless... and until now I still have ntg to rebutt his comment.
Imagine that, using the LAW to shut me up.

This is something which I haven't managed to pinpoint my stand on yet. Maybe this is a good thing- after all, there will never be one correct opinion, there will never be a compromise and there will always be unhappy people. A year can pass, 12 months, yada many days, etc, and things can change so much.

For one thing, within one year- a lifestyle of independence, of living alone, and of taking care of oneself, one that has developed over 6 years can just change within a day of getting bad news, the news that says you can't stay in this country anymore, no you cannot, meaning, you move back to square 1, where you started from- living with the parents, with the brother, living in a country where the culture and the customs and the perceptions of life- is more narrow-minded, closer, more protective of you- a country that spoon feeds the citizens, a country that nurtures you even after you've retired at the age of 55. Settled now in Brunei once again- my daily routine rarely changes- wake up, work, gym, dinner, home, out, friends, family... as opposed to the lifestyle I led just last year, i can wake up according to what the timetable says, they change weekly, i can choose where to eat, whether i want to see this person or that person, etc... i can wear the most outrageous clothes ever and have nobody stare at you, i can decide i don't want to have rice for dinner, i can decide i only want a sandwich or chocolate for dinner...

*sigh* what a big difference it has been...

Friends, you can make in that one year, in fact u can get close to someone within 9 months, because we go through the same thing. and just like that, we can all be separated... going our own paths, some chosen and preferred and some without any choice...


Such is life... la dee da.